January 9, 2014

Choosing to Be Joyful

A question I get very often is "how are you always so happy and smiling?" Let me tell you, and Travis could testify,  I am absolutely not always happy. There are days where I'm simply tired and completely frustrated.  There are people who frustrate me and moments that my patience is pushed to the max. Today is one of those days; my body is worn out, my mind is full of thoughts,  I don't know what to do,  and I just feel like crying. We all have those days, you know what I'm talking about. Everything that could go wrong does.

In those moments and on those days we have a couple choices.  We can choose to feel sorry for ourselves, complain about our life and by our attitude cause our situation to get worse. Or we can choose joy. Choosing joy isn't easy and sometimes may even feel like you're being fake. 

Honestly my friends,  our feelings don't matter though. If they did,  we would all be divorced and without jobs because I know we all have moments where we don't feel like going to work or don't feel in love with our spouse. 

You may feel too tired to get into the Word; do it anyway and see how being connected with God gives you a lift. You might feel like crying; try smiling at a stranger instead and see the blessing you'll receive. You may feel like complaining about your situation; list all the goods things and blessings in your life instead.

Joy is something that each and everyday I make the conscious effort to choose. Joy isn't based on my situation. It's not even based on whether I'm happy or not.  Actually joy and my happiness shouldn't be connected at all in my life. 

You see,  joy is something we're commanded to have: "Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances,  for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thes 4:16)  God's will is for me to be joyful simply because Christ is in my life! Wow!

When hard times comes,  which they do to everyone, it's sometimes not easy to be joyful when life seems to be crumbling around you. But you can have joy in the fact that Christ is your friend and the Creator of the universe has your back.  Friends,  I pray that today we're all able to choose joy!

Good bless you,
Alicia

January 7, 2014

One Step Closer to Debt Free!

After closely reviewing our remaining debt, we realized that we were paying way too high of an interest rate on one of my student loans and the current mortgage interest rate was substantially less than we were currently paying.  After meeting with our bank and spending some time in prayer and crunching numbers, we determined that a refinance would be a huge positive in our finances.  In this refinance process, we took out an extra $10,000 to pay off my smallest but highest interest student loan.

As we make a $10,000 payment on Wednesday to payoff this student loan, that means we are one step closer to our goal of being debt free other than our house!!

This is such an exciting step in our lives and I know this hurdle will spur us on to continue with this long and tedious process!!  As we look forward to the rest of 2014, I pray that we are able to make progress on the remaining $14,000 in order to be another step closer to our dream of adopting a child debt free!  :-)

January 6, 2014

Christmas 2013

I just realized that I never posted pictures from Christmas, so for those of you who don't have Facebook, here's some pictures!  :-)















We started off our Christmas season by making a gingerbread house at the library!  We were there about ten minutes and Lucas decided it was done.  He had a great time, though, and was extremely proud of his finished product!















We then visited with Santa at the village Christmas celebration and Lucas asked him for a race car!

















Then Christmas morning came and we had fun watching him unwrap his presents and say "Thank You!" after opening each one!  His favorite gift this year was his "racecar" from GT and Aunt Tana!

I can't describe to you how blessed we are to have this little man in our lives!  He's such a passionate, curious guy and has a spirit that will carry him well throughout his life.  Most important of all, we're raising him to understand that God loves him and Jesus is his friend!  It was so precious to hear him talk about Baby Jesus as he saw a nativity scene, and pray to God at each Christmas meal!  :-)  We are blessed beyond imagination!!

January 5, 2014

Newness

"This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it." -Psalm 118:24 (NKJV)

"Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old.  Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth." -Isaiah 4: 18 (NKJV)

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!" 2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV)

“At least there is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again, and its new shoots will not fail." -Job 14:7 (NIV)

"Put on your new nature, and be renewed as you learn to know your Creator and become like him." Colossians 3:10 (NLT)

Our God sure does love to make things new!  Everyday, a new child is born, a beautiful new sun rises, and each twenty-four hours, we have a fresh start.  Even in death, God brings about newness, as Believers receive a new home and new body.  

As we embark into this new year and we are bombarded with a snow storm, I am reminded of God's newness.  Each winter, He wipes the slate clean by bringing frost and snow, in order for flowers and trees to have a new life each Spring!  Although this snow brings us inside and depresses some of us, we must remember that it is needed to create a newness this Spring.  :-)

And as I've had time to reflect today, I realize that God gives me a newness each twenty-four hours.  Every day, I have the opportunity to wipe my slate clean, forgetting the issues of yesterday and looking forward with anticipation and hope.  I can choose to forgive the people who have hurt me, repent of my sins from the day, and passionately look forward to all that God provides me in the new day ahead.

Let us all look forward to the year ahead of us with anticipation, seeking Christ fervently!  Let us all wake up each morning with a freshness that only God can provide, allowing Him to shape each day.  Let us press on to reach the end of the race, as Paul writes in Philippians...

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us." -Philippians 3:13-14 (NLT)

December 3, 2013

November Blog Challenge and Life Update

My November blog challenge ended up not being too successful, as you can clearly see.  I often joke that I'm a "slacker" and this failed challenge indeed confirms this.  ;-)  I had the best of intentions when I decided to complete the November blog challenge.  I wanted to make November a month where I really took good note of my life.  This year has been such a whirlwind and unfortunately I didn't write down all of my emotions and happenings as much as I would have liked to.  But life gets busy.  Days turn into weeks and weeks into months.  I want to apologize for not accomplishing all the written tasks in the November challenge, but let me tell you- this month has been absolutely amazing!

Yesterday, I received the FANTASTIC news from my MRI that there is no re-growth of the cancer and the scan looked the same as the one three months ago.  Because of how well I'm responding to the chemo and to go along with research trends, my Oncologist Dr. Hohl decided we should do another four months of Temodar, my chemotherapy pills.  That means I will have done a total of ten months of five nights on,twenty three days off (on top of the two months of five nights on, two nights off) when I'm completely done.  Four more months means I will be done in February.  That will be a wonderful year mark of my cancer discovery!!

God is SO good, let me tell you!  I can't express enough how amazing this journey has been and continues to be.  As Travis, Mom, and I waited for the pharmacist to finish filling my Temodar prescription yesterday, we met a couple sets of really neat people that I will not forget anytime soon.  The gentleman and his wife whom I sparked a conversation with (imagine that... me talking to strangers...) were so friendly and filled with the Spirit that we quickly hit it off.  I ended up putting my hands on his shoulder and praying for him to feel God's presence and peace in his life.  This man was given a 12 week life expectancy due to pancreatic cancer, but he had an attitude like I've never seen- he was so positive and inspiring and he really made an impact on me.  While speaking about our love of Christ and our cancer situations, a young woman sitting on the other side of us interrupted and asked if she heard correctly that I have brain cancer.

This family turned out to be quite the opposite of my new optimistic friend.  She was around my age; 25 I would guess.  Her mother, who looked worn and weak, was sitting in the wheelchair next to her with the young lady's aunt.  Come to find out, this young lady's mom was diagnosed with the exact same tumor as mine 24 years ago.  She made it through with flying colors 24 years ago with no issues.  Since then, she had a pacemaker put in and could no longer have an MRI to follow up yearly with her brain cancer screenings.  A very large tumor re-showed itself this year- 24 YEARS LATER!  She had a really rough surgery and was in a coma for awhile afterwards.  She had to re-learn how to walk and talk and her personality has forever been different, reported her daughter, Megan.  I will never forget the sad look in this worried and worn daughter's eyes.  I prayed for her right there, but knew that if the family and her Mom wouldn't change their negative attitudes and pessimism, there might be little hope.  I gave Megan a huge hug and told her that God was with her and loved her, as she walked away with tears in her eyes.  I pray that I made an impact in her life, at least a much as that family made in mine.

You see, if I can be fortunate enough to make it another 24 years without the re-appearance of another brain tumor, I will be overjoyed and full of praise to our amazing God!  Don't get me wrong, if one chooses to appear before then, I will still continue to be thankful for the life I have been blessed with and the joy God provides.  God used this experience with this pessimistic family to remind me how important it is to maintain my faith and positive attitude through this trial.  Without my full faith in His Power, I am relying on nothing more than a medical miracle.  Without an attitude of thanksgiving, I will soon become weak and no longer able to see all the good that God has provided despite the trials.

I was so blessed to meet both of these families.  Each trip I make to Iowa City seems to get better.  Every time I make that drive, I am reminded how blessed I am.  Here we are, almost ten months since my diagnosis, alive and well.  Content and joyful with the wake up call that this cancer has proved to be in my life.

I have more exciting news to share; As I have told ya'll before, God has been tugging me to venture into the arena of Women's Ministry for awhile and I had given Him a huge "no" as my answer before.  Through this 'great awakening' of mine, I have decided to never tell God "no" again.  A dear friend of mine has set me up to speak at a local church to a group of women about 'Craving God Now'.  This will be my first 'Women's Ministry' speech and will be taking place at Harmony Bible Church in Danville, IA on December 11th at 7:00pm.   Feel free to join us for this exciting moment in my saying YES to God!  Please pray for God to speak through me and for my words to be from Him in order to make a difference in these ladies' lives!

Thank you for all of your encouragement and love you continue to shower me with!  Praise God and Him alone for the difference I am able to make in people's lives; I am simply His instrument.  :-)

Much love,
Alicia

November 5, 2013

Day 5: Five Quotes You Love

1) Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says, 'Oh crap!  She's up!'

2) Be the change that you hope to see in the world.

3) People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.  

4) If that's the worst thing that happens to me today, then it's still a good day.  

5) Done is better than perfect.  


Aaaaaand.... Because I love quotes and have lots and lots of them, here's just a few extra: 

6) If you think you're too small to make an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito in the room.

7) Life isn't about being the best.  It's about being better than you were yesterday

8) Never quit smiling.  You never know what kind of an impact your smile is making.  

9) When you feel like you're drowning in life, don't worry because your lifeguard walks on water. 

November 1, 2013

Day 1 of November Blog Challenge: Your Goals for Next Month

My Goals for next month, December, are to:

purchase all of our Christmas gifts within our budget,

to enjoy the time we get to spend with our family, and

to relax and remember that we're simply celebrating our Savior's birth!