We decided that since it's been almost a month (a month tomorrow actually) since my surgery, I should be fine not having someone with me all the time. Our community and church has been amazing, in providing all of our meals since we have been home. Danielle, my super amazing best friend, also worked out a schedule so that I had people sitting with me and helping me with things around the house until I felt strong enough to be home by myself. I have honestly been going stir-crazy not being out and about and working! My radiation nurse encouraged me to be as active as I feel I can be and I will know my limit. So, this week I have been working from home lots and I have even gone in a couple times to work! I'm so excited! I really missed my Oaklane family!!
Just so you are aware, I made my decision on chemotherapy. It really wasn't too difficult of a decision, after I started researching and praying about it. I figure let's tackle this with all the resources we have available to us. Yes, I may have days where I don't feel well and we will have to be slightly more conscious of the people I'm exposed to. But in all honesty, like the nurse said, we are fortunate that it's getting to be Springtime and flu season has passed; all in God's timing!
So, we go up on Friday for a radiation "verification" session, where they make sure the mask and mouth piece fit and are all aligned properly with the radiation beams. And my first actual day of both radiation and chemotherapy is Monday, April 1st!
Tonight, Danielle is hosting the first planning meeting for my benefit that her and my family and friends are throwing, in order to raise funds for my medical bills. It's strange, but I have no doubt that all will work out financially. I was nervous about it all right after we got home from the hospital; you see, we haven't gotten all that far in the Dave Ramsey baby steps. Even though we were working hard to pay off debt, we still have quite a bit left to pay down. And after I logged into my online health insurance claims website and saw that many of the amounts billed to my insurance were posted, totally over $80,000, I honestly started to get a little worried. But all Travis could do was laugh. He just kept telling me that "God will provide." After lots of prayer and my husband holding me accountable, we both feel at such peace with the bills. If I've learned anything from this experience, it's that I'm not in control, God is. And I need to trust in his provision for us.
Matthew 6:26-27 says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
I hope you have a wonderful last week of March, friends! Remember to live your life for Christ and that you are not in control. :-)
God will provide us all our needs!